037: everything must change
today’s blog post is just gonna be me typing until i stop. i just got off work. it’s the second day of 2026. i feel like i want my life to change for the better. there’s alot to be thankful for and things are as beautiful as hey seem but things are challenging too. i’m fed up with my routine. there have been two nina simone songs stuck in my head all day. “everything must change” and “you’ve got to learn.” u should really give them a listen with an open heart if u so dare. “everything must change” says '“there are so few things, so little things in life you can be sure of. except the rain comes from the clouds, sunlight from the sky, and hummingbirds do fly.” im on the cusp of being extremely comforted by that and also extremely terrified. i fear God in a major way.
there is something about being twenty-four years old right now.
i don’t have a clue. i find an extremely motivating sense of peace in the uncertainty of the future. there is peace but i want to be excited.
i keep thinking im going to come to some sort of revelation typing this. but i just dont know!!!
maybe i can talk about what im thankful for. im thankful for the people i love. i am thankful for all that i am blessed enough to experience. i am thankful for my confidence. i am thankful for my sense of self. my accountability. my loyalty. my wit. im thankful that i no longer feel the need to explain myself, or prove myself. im thankful that i don’t let others’ bad days become mine. im thankful that God has the power over my life and nothing else. “everything must change.” im so thankful for that!!!! there is so much to be done. i hope i move to a new city this year. im thankful that im writing today. im just so thankful.
i, of course, wanted to talk about fashion or something today. i dont know who’s gonna care for or about this. i dont even know if i’ll proofread or anything. i dont plan on it. sorry for any typos. if you didnt find any, how does it feel to know im so perfect?!
im thankful for you if you are reading this. this is probably gonna be the most pointless, terrible blog post i’ve ever written. idc fr.
i thought this would be romantic. instead i feel super awkward but i still can’t stop talking. typing. shit.
do u know what i need? i need a vacation. im gonna take one as soon as possible. im thinking about quitting my job. haha not kidding, though. who tf needs a job. i would tell you guys how i used to make all my money but you might work for the bank. wink wink. i had a super legit 2025 and im thankful for that.
money is so vital. money is so good. i hope you know that money wants to be your friend but if you keep chasing something its gonna keep running from you. i dont know why i feel like having a job is against my spirituality right now. i like to say i dont chase money but i cant wait for those two weeks to go by. haha. but yeah never chase anything. it might think that you want to play tag, and no one wants to be it. instead invite it to build a sand castle. i loveee you.
my nephew was watching elmo world and elmo was like telling the kids bye and then he was like “elmo loves you!” and i melted at the thought that he might be saying that especially for the kids that never get told i love you and their parents just throw them in front of a screen and turn on elmo but never spends time with them so ugh. ELMO LOVES U. im elmo, you’re the baby.
xoxo, vc <3
