013: bible.
It’s Sunday, let's go to church!
Lately, I have been constantly and boldly reminding myself that I am the prize!
This has everything to do with the path that has been paved for my life. After leaving art and design school and taking on this journey of being a student of the world and making my own way, I got told “No” a lot! It was daunting, but I didn’t feel scared. I constantly admired my own bravery because I just WOULD… NOT… STOP! I noticed that I had never really put myself in the line of fire to be told no… especially repeatedly.
In school, good grades came easy to me, and as my classes progressed in difficulty, I just did my best and things still worked out. As it related to working, I had never kept a job for more than a week or however long it took to get the money for whatever it was I wanted to buy. I had never been willing to be even the least bit uncomfortable in that way. I thank my parents for giving me the freedom and grace to evolve on my own rather than telling me I was wrong for my way of thinking because I have so much clarity now. I am proud that I was able to learn my own lesson.
In this season of my life, I have gotten SO very uncomfortable. I have been reaching for the stars, and no one can tell me that I am wrong because before going on this journey, I would ask God over and over to align His will with my wants and my actions. To have His will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven, for real. I still do so everyday. From there, I walk with a knowing, and even when I feel discouraged, I know I cannot lose because the intentions have been set and the integrity is there to match. From the beginning, all I have wanted to do was break into the world of fashion in my own, new way.
First of all, I went ahead and planted myself there by opening the VAULT to the world. It meant so much to me to start with something that could never be taken away from me. Next, I would go into high luxury stores and share what I was all about and where I come from. This authenticity is what has allowed me to make the cool content that accompanies this blog and soak up so much game along the way. Before I knew it, the people around me were believing in me in ways I probably had not yet seen in myself, and they began putting in good words for me wherever they could.
Soon, I’d be working the Saks Fifth Avenue, Best of Saks show and be offered opportunities to do production assisting on professional sets. I even landed myself a permanent job position in which I was blessed with more responsibility than I’d initially sought out for. When it is time to elevate to the next step, I have invaluable experience under my belt, experiences I did not even know I could handle when I first set out.
There were even moments, in the midst of my shower of blessings, where I questioned myself because the opportunities were flowing in so constantly. During a moment of reflection, I realized that if I could reach this level, I could elevate even further. I can keep getting closer to my dreams. However, I also thought about how difficult it might be to eventually leave behind the people who believed in me when everyone else said no.
Here is where I had to check myself. There should be no shame in receiving what God is doing for you unless you do not feel worthy. And if He deems me worthy, who am I to disagree? I'm a fashionista, not a fool! And I am the prize along this path.
One thing I’ve realized is that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be because God has equipped me with the tools to handle everything coming my way. I am more dynamic than ever. A year ago, even six months ago, I wouldn’t have been able to take all those no’s and use them as fuel. I probably would have convinced myself that I wasn’t on the right path.
I would not have had the guts to go meet and connect with Jun from Chanel or Taylor from Balmain (my high fashion angels in disguise), and now we don’t see each other without smiling big. I would not currently have the job I have now because I take direction and criticism better than I ever have in my entire life. I actually cannot think of a time where I was okay with that before now, and it didn't matter to me who you were, how qualified you were, or how well you meant. I was not prepared to take what you were dishing.
I have always known the altitudes I want to reach. However, I now have something in me that wants it so bad that I am willing to accept help, criticism, and discomfort as long as it is propelling me further along my path. Challenges are okay! "NO" is okay! "You can do better" is okay! It has been made clear as day to me that God will make sure you have what you need when you need it. If not for the rebel, anti-authority diva in me, I would not understand or appreciate the significance of where I am now and all that God is doing for me. So when I take inventory of my blessings, I thank the version of myself that was not yet ready for where I am now.
It’s a blessing to be able to notice your blessings! To be able to see what God is doing over your life. I am so happy and thankful to be able to see the changes within myself. I am great because I am adaptable. I am great because I am flexible. I am great because I care to listen.
Thank u to the VAULT a million times over for believing in me as well.
And to GOD... TENS AND AMENS ARE DUE!
xoxo, VC <3
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